The story begins long time ago when we was one group in Mansoura, Egypt. We shared thoughts, prayers, have fun, sing, camp and worked together to make the world as a better place. After a while everyone goes in this life, some had married, being busy in his work, traveled abroad or discovered his new way through life. But, we still friends missing each others and missing those old days.

One of our activites at that time was a magazine called “PeaceMakers” where we worked together to publish our thoughts, opinions and contemplations. Unfortunately, only 5 releases had been issued becasue many of outside forces frustrated it. It stopped but we always dream to make it again.

Now, we thought we can make it real in a form of blog. As Fadi said on his email, being online, all of us can contribute wherever we are. It could be better cause we can receive the reactions also. It’s a kind of new experience for us as a group to be exposed to the world.

Here are the first conversation (interview) with Rasha (gone to USA a year ago) about it on IM:

me: Hello rasha, h r u?
Rasha: Hii, Not bad
me: Not bad but not good?
Rasha: Exactly
me: Why? Is there something?
Rasha: No. That’s normal now. Anyway how are you?
me: Not good
Rasha: Why? The normal?
me: No, much less than normal. I’ve been in depression mode for more than a month now
Rasha: Why?
me: It’s a complicated issues overlapped. My work is uncomfortable, some members in our group are disappointing, personal issue in my life
Rasha: The life is full of hard days
me: For me, now, all life days is hard days
me: Anyway, I don’t want to reflect my negative energy on u
Rasha: I have some myself ….

So, it’s not me only in this mode. It seems with few chatting with the group members that it’s like a general situation. It’s normal to have some personal tough time but what if a whole group of people???

Rasha: If you want to talk, it’s ok
me: I’m able to hear u if u want to talk
Rasha: No, I have nothing to say. I began to forget how to talk
me: Me too somehow, my face was black all through the Christmas and the holiday. I didn’t go with them to the hospital in the Christmas Eve, not on Jan 7 until all had gone home. Don’t want to see any, talk to any. People keep asking me “What’s going on with you?” but I can’t say
Rasha: Ya, the difference here is, I don’t see anyone and no one care to ask!!!!
me: Believe it or not, I don’t care, I even close my mobile most of the time, their calls annoying me
Rasha: No, friends and family are really a blessing. You won’t know until you try it although they give us a hard time sometimes but they still a blessing
me: Yea, I agree with u coz I feel it when I didn’t see them for a long time.

Here, I thought to share the idea of the online magazine with her:

me: It’s nice to have ur thoughts out to the world
Rasha: ya that’s right
me: That’s what I want to tell u now, I thought we may reinitiate our magazine again but this time online
Rasha: It’s a good idea
me: Being online means we all can write in it wherever we are without any limitations
Rasha: Ya sure
me: I know u may not have enough energy to do it, me too but I just don’t want to give up being imprisoned in my problems
Rasha: That’s right
Rasha: We souldn’t give up
me: i’m trying to fight even with depressed soul to get some of our sweet moments back
Rasha: I wish
me: Me too very very hard
Rasha: But it seems that’s impossible and we were so lucky to live this things together
me: U r right, lelasaf u r right
Rasha: But we should do something to be always in touch, to be always friends and to have some good times
me: But I just have a small, a tiny hope that we still able to do something
Rasha: Ya me too, I still have some hope
me: We can turn over the current hopeless situation into our side. I don’t know how but I hope we can.
Rasha: Ya

Yea, we souldn’t give up. We still have some hope that we can do something whatever it’s, but we’ll be better together as we have been always. Here, ends the conversation but this blog had been burn. Few emails to my friends inviting them to contribute here and then we can start. I don’t know where this blog will drive us to discuss or to do, no specific topics, no limitations but I hope we got to do something together.