Of Praying and some of the controversial issues related to it. (Part I)
Time: 3.46 am
Place: Sleeping room
Condition: I’ve been trying to sleep for nearly 3 hours now, but I can’t get into it, I just keep on thinking and thinking about the praying issue.
I’ll try here to state down some kind of comprehensive view on the issue of praying and some the controversial questions related to it. Of course all what I’m going to write here expresses my own point of view and nothing.
I’m going to post my thoughts in the form of questions and answers.
Let’s start from the early beginning.
What is praying?
Praying is a conversation we have with god.
But what is the essence of this conversation?
It is this conversation that ascends from materialistic self-seeking conversation, to spiritual self-seeking conversation ending up with this gratis prayer in which we seek nothing but being with him, praising him… Of course this categorization doesn’t cover all the essences that the conversation with god can be based on. In addition these three categories mentioned formerly are not like steps being taken. It is more like a particularity that dominates on most of our prayers, but that doesn’t mean that even during being in a certain essence we don’t live any of the other 2 essences. We live all the three mutually, but with more dominance of one of them. Note: there are much higher levels of praying like ecstasy (aldahesh), the vision of god, and theiahenosis (unity with god).
And how should the prayers be practiced?
There are wide variety of options we are offered to practice praying in our personal life. We have the Agepea prayers, we have the personal prayer and that may be classified to both meditation (hazez) and contemplation (ta2mol), and we also have the spiritual chanting that is mostly practiced in the Anglican and Protestant churches.
So which is the superlative practice?
Herein I’ll try to analyze all these 3 categories out of my own very limited experience. The Agepea prayer is based on David’s psalms so it is very expressive words to talk to god with, it also arranged to cover main periods of the day (even if it is mostly practiced twice a day) and this makes not faulty in expressing our real commitment in offering daily time to good, it is not faulty on the intellectual level as it will be seen with contemplation, it covers a wide variety of levels of praying from thanking, asking forgiveness, praising… But I see it is some times turns out to be series of repeated words without getting personally and totally involved in it, and thus lived in a superficial way.
So what about the personal prayer, it is based on biblical text and thus it helps to dominate the word of god over us, it also helps us to understand ourselves in more deep way, and it is very effective when we want revise some period in out life and how we lived it. But it very faulty on the intellectual level as it may satisfy our intellectual desires without penetrating the word god tour hearts, in addition it may lead to some kind of heresy if we kept on living it on intellectual level.
And for the spiritual chanting it helps us being in state of readiness to accept god’s demands and obey his commandments. But it may be very faulty on the psychological level, because living in some kind of extra ordinary feelings stimulated by chanting may mislead us and put us in a kind of illusion that we have reached certain levels of high spirituality.
So what can we conclude from your thoughts ya 3am Tony?
I’ll tell you. What really matters in the prayer is the person who is praying and what is he trying to live and is he trying to be honest with himself in his spiritual practice or just fooling himself. God said “My son give me your heart and your eyes should be on my roads.” That is what god really wants from us our hearts. And this is what we should be giving him in our prayers. Because whatever the way we practice our prayers without heart it is nothing and without the daily effort in each prayer to deny ourselves and thoughts in front of god’s sound, then we are just fooling ourselves. By the way the previous point the advantages and disadvantages are not something wrong with the prayer itself, it is the wrong the person who prays and how honestly does he live it. Personally and again I say it is something personal for me, I feel I need all the previously mentioned practice of prayer in diverse levels, in addition to a lot of others like praying with the community of believers, the prayer of poor….
To Be Continued because, it is 5.18 now and I start falling asleep…