PeaceMakers

“Blessed are the peacemakers, for they will be called sons of God”

Hello guys, how r u all? I know the post title may be little depressing, it is a curious thought I had long time ago. I wanted to publish it but as I am not very clever in the document work, I was delaying it. I will try to do my best. I wanted to make a schedule of comparison but I failed so I will arrange it acc. to my small skills.
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I read that other day about these old writtings known as the Gospel of Judas. It didn’t trouble me at all that it praises Judas Iscariot and account him as a saint for what he did. However, it raised some thoughts in my mind. One of them is related to Judas himself and the other one is related to those who believed in his sanctity.
First, let me talk about Judas. Judas was not only one of Jesus’ disciples, but I bet he was one of the smartest. He must had been honest too. The reason I am saying so is that he was assigned to be responsible for all the finances. He must had performed miracles. Remember when Jesus had send out all Hs disciples, He ordered them to heal the sick, cleanse the lepers, rasie the dead, and cast out demons (Matt 10:8). Judas had the best experience anyone can ask for. But at the end he betrayed his Master. One can say the devil tricked him, but many times Jesus warned him. Even till the last moment Jesus told him,”what you do, do quickly.” After all of this, he still persisted on pursing his plan. The bible mentioned that satan entered him. Did satan enter him against his will? No, it was his choice . Though he did not choose it explicitly, he took the way that leads to so.
I can analyse Judas character and give a very reasonable explanation to what he did, from a psychological point of view. But I find it more beneficient to learn something out of this stroy than to satisfy my intense intellectual desire to analyse Judas. After all this time with his Master, I am sure that Judas had a very strong motivation to do what he did. otherwise, he wouldn’t have done it. His mistake was that he did not reveal his motivations, his thoughts.. I am sure the whole thing started with simple and innocent ideas. But since he covered these thoughts, they started to ferment. When reading the bible, you will notice how many times Jesus gently provoked Judas to expose his hidden thoughts, but Judas kept silent. Assuredly, Jesus loved Judas and when He was prophecising about the one who will betray Him, He was mainly worried about Judas. But as a loving Father, He did not want to hurt Judas’ feelings. He did not confront him,but He was waiting for Judas to speak up. But Judas kept silent. He may had some talks with the Pharisees but he kept silent in front of those who cared about him.

Sometimes Satan wants us to keep silent especially when some of our thoughts need fermentation. He will fight us with discomfort feelings when we try to speak up and reveal ourselves to those who really care out us. Remember that God’s way is always bright. It is always light and it does not fear darkness. If we are afraid to reveal our desires fearing that we may lose them, then they are not from God. They cannot live in light.

To be continued….

LOVE!!!
You’re the simplest word that we use alot.
You’re the simplest word that need all complex words to describe.

LOVE!!!
Do you exist or not?
Do we understand you or misunderstand?

LOVE!!!
Who are you?
Where are you?
How do we feel you?

LOVE!!!
Give me prove that you reside in our world
Because I lost the word and the meaning
I lost the action and the track

LOVE!!!
I begin to hate you
as many are misuse you
to kill the few that remain in my heart

LOVE!!!
I can’t even keep away of you
All you’re doing to me is pain and more pain

LOVE!!!
That’s all
So please leave me alone

The curse of falling in love with someone who is not right
The curse that changes love from romance to a deadly fight
The curse that makes you see all the black as white
The curse that makes you scream in the middle of the night
The curse that can kill & bury then revive
The curse that makes u live without a sensible drive
The curse that makes u say words u don’t mean
The curse that puts pressures on you untill u lean
The curse that makes u feel a disease u cann’t treat
The curse that puts challanges u know u cann’t meet
The curse that controls u no matter how u try to defeat
The curse that makes u patient and teaches u to wait
The curse that u discover only when it is too late
The curse that makes u lose while u think u gain
The curse that makes u happy but fills ur eyes with tears
The curse that makes u safe while surrounding u with fears
What a double weapon……?

may be it’s my 1st time 2 write bas i felt something strange like most of guyz ….haset en nefsi masr teksab bass….ana mabhebish masr!really i’m not kiddin ana mabhebish el balad de we 3ala fekra mo3zam el shabab el fe seni mabyehebosh el balad yemkin le2anena men yom matwaldna ma3shnash haga helwa fe el balad de aw mahsenash enha balad te2dar te3mil haga….
karhin el balad we el fe el balad amshi fe el shaware3 el nas wa2fa fe nos el share3 we kharbin el donya we mesh 3aref tetkalim ma3ahom le2an bemogard mahtetkalim hatesma3 kelmit enta mesh 3aref enta betkalim men?? law zabal hay2ol el kelma de .shewayet as2ela ba2a 3ala el sare3 sa2ltaha le nafsi leh mahsetsh bel entema2 sa3et el 3abara lama 3′er2et ??leh mas3edtish?? we leh hasit bel entema2 fe el match we roht etfargt?? begad ehna sha3b 3awez el har2a we el balad 3awza el har2a .YEKHRIB BET EL BALAD .
AZ3AGTOKOM ??!!! ET3AWEDO 3ALA KEDA…
KARIM

SINS??? Are these little things that we do according to our needs ….? Or it is in our genes or it is originate at the time ADAM & EVE fall in it, many many things but actually sins are the mask of our instincts …
From my point of view, GOD won’t be sad from us cos’ we make sins itself … no!! GOD gave us our bodies, our lives just to keep it for him,, we are the temples of god here on earth,, and he live in this temple with us,,, and by sins we are destroying this temple and we forget that god is there in this temple too,, at this time we won’t be the only one who will die there,, but also GOD will vanish from our lives!!!!

We are like the atomic structure … GOD is the atom and we are the electrons that move around that atom,,,, and the one which is near to the atom is more active than that one far from it , the far one can be loss very easy ,, and it won’t find the way to come back. ??!!!!

I want to say one last word ,, SIN is the only thing that connect us with that earth , so don’t let it take you down to the core ,, you won’t find anything there except you … the sin laugh at you ……… and of course the fire waiting for you !!! GOOD LUCK IN THE CORE

Dear all ,
I can’t believe I’m writing for the second time , but really your subjects attract me and let me think in every words , I read that post about dreams and I liked it a lot …. I just want to add something here ,,,
DREAMS … is that these little things that we can’t reach at least for now ?? ok lets imagine that word with each others , try to imagine that you are at the top of the world looking around , you will see a very very beautiful view from over there BUT try to go throw it to be near. ,,,,, at this time you will see the ugliness and pain of that view ,, all I want to say is ,,,,, TRY to let your dreams away for a time even if you can reach it ,, try to feel the beauty for it till you find another dream that you can make it come true ….. dreams are the sugar of life that give the good taste for our lives ,, you have to keep it till It lose its sweetness ……
Some of you will say ,, are you crazy adel . do you want us to see our dreams come toward our eyes and let it go ??? ,, but let me tell you something …. Don’t let your dream control you , you have to control it … it is YOUR dream …………… YOUR dream.

Once I got a dream to live in a farm , in a wood house ,, with a horse and a dog. I know I can’t find it now where I’m living but from deep inside I’m sure I’ll do it one day ,, I’m trying to live in my dream even if that day won’t come to life …. Believe me if I ask myself : will you be happy if that dream come to live in reality ?? I’m not sure (this will be the real word of all of that) i’m not sure……………
Before I go I want to tell you that …. The HAPPINESS is not in the dream itself ,,, but it is in the SUFFERING to reach that dream .

Yours
The dreamer

A very wise man once told me, ” The only way to measure your self-pride is through your dreams.” I know it may not look resonable to you, but give your mind a chance to digest it. Give it some thought and you will find out how deep this statement is… Really our dreams, including the spiritual ones, reflect our self-pride. I think that is why humble and modest people, of course the real ones not the fake ones, are always happy. They have simple dreams, they are satisfied with what they have… They are even free to let it go, if these dreams don’t come true… Now I started to understand why the church talks a lot about modesty and meekness… I think they are the real way of happiness and freedom….

I’m going to complete the rest of the points I wanted to mention about the Praying issue. But just before I go on, where are the rest of you guys, why aren’t you commenting, where are you Fadi, you didn’t show up for 2 days, and you used to write to daily before that.
Any way let’s get back to the topic.
Brain whashing, a word that Miena mentioned 2 days, is it related to praying?
Till you what yes it is related, and it should be related. Let’s define first what is brain washing, it is the process of removing certain concepts from someone and yielding new ones. And this kind of change should occur during praying, especially meditation (elhazez). Our old concepts which is based on greedy, lusts, arrogance, hatred…should die and new concepts of love, giving, humpleness…should be born and this change occurs only in praying. So that the new concepts are not just known by us mentally but also based in our hearts moving every action we do.
It seems that I made the whole issue look suspicious, so would you please make it more clear?
I’ll try making it clearer in this paragraph. First when does brain washing occurs, it occurs when I put myself under the clout of certain text or someone. This why we have to do all our prayers based on biblical text, because it the only text which should have clout upon us. I express this situation, that we place ourselves under something and we allow it to reshape us. This why some of the fathers insist on basing meditations on biblical scripts and not even scripts written by saints. This why we should be above all the kind of text and teaching given to us except for the bible. I even consider the same concept with spiritual guiding, we should examine and discern everything before we put ourselves under it. I will go further here and add that we should examine and discern the ideas and thoughts we acquire during praying. Because ideas and thoughts are sometimes illusive. This is why we always here this expression discerning whenever we talk with someone with good spiritual experience.
I’ll try to write something soon about some kinds of brain washing we may suffer from in our lives, because I’ve a lot to say about it.
I just want to add something at the end, inspite of this complications, and sophisticated post I’d written, god is much more simple than this. He is not just simple he never leaves us.

I’ll end this topic now, because I feel I cannot express what I want to say in the right way and this may lead to misunderstanding…On the hope of writing Part III.

Time: 3.46 am
Place: Sleeping room
Condition: I’ve been trying to sleep for nearly 3 hours now, but I can’t get into it, I just keep on thinking and thinking about the praying issue.
I’ll try here to state down some kind of comprehensive view on the issue of praying and some the controversial questions related to it. Of course all what I’m going to write here expresses my own point of view and nothing.
I’m going to post my thoughts in the form of questions and answers.
Let’s start from the early beginning.
What is praying?
Praying is a conversation we have with god.
But what is the essence of this conversation?
It is this conversation that ascends from materialistic self-seeking conversation, to spiritual self-seeking conversation ending up with this gratis prayer in which we seek nothing but being with him, praising him… Of course this categorization doesn’t cover all the essences that the conversation with god can be based on. In addition these three categories mentioned formerly are not like steps being taken. It is more like a particularity that dominates on most of our prayers, but that doesn’t mean that even during being in a certain essence we don’t live any of the other 2 essences. We live all the three mutually, but with more dominance of one of them. Note: there are much higher levels of praying like ecstasy (aldahesh), the vision of god, and theiahenosis (unity with god).
And how should the prayers be practiced?
There are wide variety of options we are offered to practice praying in our personal life. We have the Agepea prayers, we have the personal prayer and that may be classified to both meditation (hazez) and contemplation (ta2mol), and we also have the spiritual chanting that is mostly practiced in the Anglican and Protestant churches.
So which is the superlative practice?
Herein I’ll try to analyze all these 3 categories out of my own very limited experience. The Agepea prayer is based on David’s psalms so it is very expressive words to talk to god with, it also arranged to cover main periods of the day (even if it is mostly practiced twice a day) and this makes not faulty in expressing our real commitment in offering daily time to good, it is not faulty on the intellectual level as it will be seen with contemplation, it covers a wide variety of levels of praying from thanking, asking forgiveness, praising… But I see it is some times turns out to be series of repeated words without getting personally and totally involved in it, and thus lived in a superficial way.
So what about the personal prayer, it is based on biblical text and thus it helps to dominate the word of god over us, it also helps us to understand ourselves in more deep way, and it is very effective when we want revise some period in out life and how we lived it. But it very faulty on the intellectual level as it may satisfy our intellectual desires without penetrating the word god tour hearts, in addition it may lead to some kind of heresy if we kept on living it on intellectual level.
And for the spiritual chanting it helps us being in state of readiness to accept god’s demands and obey his commandments. But it may be very faulty on the psychological level, because living in some kind of extra ordinary feelings stimulated by chanting may mislead us and put us in a kind of illusion that we have reached certain levels of high spirituality.
So what can we conclude from your thoughts ya 3am Tony?
I’ll tell you. What really matters in the prayer is the person who is praying and what is he trying to live and is he trying to be honest with himself in his spiritual practice or just fooling himself. God said “My son give me your heart and your eyes should be on my roads.” That is what god really wants from us our hearts. And this is what we should be giving him in our prayers. Because whatever the way we practice our prayers without heart it is nothing and without the daily effort in each prayer to deny ourselves and thoughts in front of god’s sound, then we are just fooling ourselves. By the way the previous point the advantages and disadvantages are not something wrong with the prayer itself, it is the wrong the person who prays and how honestly does he live it. Personally and again I say it is something personal for me, I feel I need all the previously mentioned practice of prayer in diverse levels, in addition to a lot of others like praying with the community of believers, the prayer of poor….
To Be Continued because, it is 5.18 now and I start falling asleep…

The first sin in the history of humanity started by the desire of man to be equal to god. So he decided to eat from the fruit of knowledge not for the sake of knowledge but to be equal to god, and here started the longest stroy of conflicts between humans. And then Adam got into a conflict with Eve, Kaeen killed his brother Habeel and the story went on….
Do we really still try to be Gods? I think yes we do. Everyone of us are always trying to put god in limited list of laws and judgements. Because the god we are trying to be is limited, while the almighty god is not limited. We are always trying to put rules for god to work on. But we always forget that god is above rules, he is not even limited by the holy laws, becasue he is the one who placed it and so he is the one who is over it.
You should be saying “Tony got crazy.” what is the relation between trying to understand gods way of judgement and ruling and our desire to be equal to god. I’ll till you what the is relation, when we develop all these rules giving answers to questions that have been always confusing the world about salvation, what is after death…what we are simply doing is that we are trying to put the alighty god with his unlimited love, absolute justice and generous mercy in our minds. We are trying to be gods. Out of lose in our faith in his Mercy and Justice, we try to find rules to justify our questions and worries that was originally born out of our lake of faith.
And the crisis really starts when we have already developed the complete figure about what is god going to do with every single human in this earth during his life and in the coming life. Now we are gods and we cannot listen to other gods, but we work on teaching the other gods the rules of our god. And we all together cannot allow the almighty god to do something out of the rules that we had developed for him to work on.

I hope that any of you could get a point of what I’m saying.

Dear Friends,
First I want to share you something I experience everyday with this blog thing. I nearly check the site 100 times a day for finding some kind of more comments or posts. When it is at night I just have this struggle, “I want to sleep.” VS “I want to write something on the blog.” and it usually ends up me not sleeping and writing something here, specially comments.
Now I’ll tell you about something I’m planning to write here. For me the unity of the church means a lot, means some kind of a dream, I’m not having the same background and the same point of view I used to have about the unity of church when we started such an activity. But I’ve this dream; having this dream doesn’t mean that I’m much better than others who don’t care about it, or any kind of a thing that makes ahead of them. I’ve this dream because I believe it is God’s will to be one. One more thing I want to add here, I’ve no kind of an imagination on how this dream can be on the earth of reality. I just dream that it will be done in the way God’s will is fulfilled.
You know what the word unity doesn’t mean any more for me just the unity between churches, it means the unity we should work on creating in our communities, starting from our families… But this doesn’t deminish any of my strong desire for the unity of church.
Before I start a series of posts I’m planing to write here. I just want to say some points on which I would like to build this whole thing.
“I’m sorry if one day I couldn’t understand the fears, the feelings of the churchs enough.”
“I’m sorry if one I was a kind of humilating by my words any of the churchs or the leaders of the churchs.”
“I love all the churchs and I believe that God is trying to tell something to every one of them.”
“I believe that every church have a lot of richness.”
“I believe that unity will not be a work of humans, it will be God’s work.”
“I believe that unity will change the face of earth.”
What I’m going to post is a series of post under the title “Why do we conflict?” this title is not just directed about the churchs, but it is rather more about our personal lives. Let’s pray for god’s will in fulfilling the unity of the church and let us work to unify the world around us.
Love
Antonius Armanious